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okay, so this year has been awesome. i would say it was one of the best years of my life, bt it was also one of the most confusing. i dont know what specifically was/is confusing, its just everything.
its not neccessarily bad, jus confusing. and i like having answers to everything. i like being in control of things that involve me. and it kinda bothers me when i dont know whats going to happen next or what people are thinking.
idk exactly what i want in my life, bt right now is not it. only a few things are solid and you dont know how much it bothers me not to know certain things.
ugh, well i guess (hopefully) everything will make sense after highschool, bt until then, i guess il just TRY to figure things out....

i jus wish i could be a toddler or like 25 and really starting my life, because this age is way too confusing for me.

thinking...

That time right befor you fall asleep at night, what are you thinking?
I think about my future. There are so many things to think about. I really want to be out of high school and starting my life. I mean, we've been in school our WHOLE lives, ANYTHING else would be more than exciting.
Where to go to college? What job to get? It's all so exciting, but then you have to think about how to support yourself, where to life, where to start a family (after u decide if you even want to)!. So many things.
There are just WAY TOO MANY things to think about...